AS DEEP AS I CAN GET INTO THIS THING / CCMLA / 2019
As deep as I can get into this thing.
No eyes, no ears, no nose, no tongue, no body, no mind, no color, no sound, no form, no object of mind.
Presence.
I used to think that over-analyzing and questioning my decisions and self-expression would bring me some kind of calm and control. I have come to realize I could not have been more wrong. In this search, I used different disciplines such as dance, meditation, and yoga to achieve a sense of stability that could help me get to know parts of myself that otherwise could remain unreachable. My body has always known how to express itself through movement and for a while, I thought that that was the perfect medium to solve my restlessness. Then I realized that this tool fell short, and that is how painting came to me. Through the merge of these two languages, I now understand my relationship with the moment in history we’re living, and with my feminine nature and my emotions towards it. Today, my process leaves out any thought that aims to control or analyze what comes out of me. I only search for the moment I inhabit, and everything else comes out of that. These works are the result from casualty and the movement between the material and the body; between the curiosity and the existing alternatives; and between the intuition and the endless search for an honest relationship with the present moment.
My goal is to stay in the depth of the here and now.
